Happy New Year's

I think our family is starting a new tradition. The mother gets super drunk and drives to a new year's party.
The eldest daughter and her mother argue over something stupid after she comes home, and mom forgets it the next day.
Even if this isn't becoming a tradition, (God I hope not) it's strange this exact scenario has happened the exact same 2 years in a row!


As for my academic update:

I feel more confident taking the test now! :)
I passed the practice English test with a really high score! I've always been good at English, so I wasn't really worried about that.

My mom still gets drunk and contradicts herself about how many tests she wants me to take at a time.
I broke down crying a month or two ago about the test and I guess that made her go easier on me about the whole thing. I still choke up talking about testing, but I just have issues when it comes to school and stuff, I just feel like I'll never be smart enough. I need to start studying for Social Studies.

You know, Sometimes I miss public school. God. The anxiety public school gave me would be enough to kill a normal person, I think. I enjoyed riding the bus and listening to the other kids talk with each other. I had friends, but this was elementary and early middle school. Everyone was still nice back then. I couldn't imagine talking to kids my age now... I'd be dead before I even got to say hello.

And other issues:

I'm still a hot mess; I've gotten better and smiling and eating Infront of people. Sometimes I feel like I overdo it because I'm not exactly sure how to be normal. :/ (How quirky)
I space out a lot and my head is filled with so much more noise!!!! It's annoying when you're watching something and realize you were spaced out, reading too. -_-

It's called disassociating, but I don't like using words like that for myself. It's like I'm trying to tell people there's something ACTUALLY wrong with me LOL
There really isn't, I just think too much.
Here's to a somewhat decent 2025!