studying

I don't think I've truly ever felt THIS dumb before.

There are things I don't understand sometimes, but that's fine! It happens to everyone. But this year feels different. I'm studying things I should already know - that I'm sure I DO know. But I'm really pulling out my hair because the words and numbers are all jumbled and everyone around me just seems so much smarter. what's wrong with me?? I don't think I'm that incompetent? Why can't I understand the way other kids understand. It's not fair!!! Everything is just soo easy for them. They don't feel useless every time someone gets a question they were struggling with right.

we're all the same age learning the same things. why can't I just get it?